Wednesday

Hi!!

Yes, my computer is still gone -- maybe i would get it back tomorrow. =0) Life without my laptop is reallie quite wierd. There is nothing much to do, cuz everything needs to be typed out... So, everything has been pushed back till the computer is back. I kinda refuse working on my home computer -- for the basis reason tt it's only used for games [by the 2 small ones]

Well, with a little extra time, I've started to watch WINTER SONATA again. Wow! Still quite in love with the storyline. There are parts here and there that i didn't pay attention to -- which is quite clear to me now. I remembered the last time, I didn't watch the whole thing -- started from the middle of no where. So yeah, enjoying myself till wee hours in the morning watching it.

Reallie quite into it. now, I'm trying to learn some songs from there on the organ .... The last time, I managed My sassy girl's theme song and CHOnG KAI SHI DAO XIAN ZAI ... sounds quite normal [boring]... So, I'm learning
1. my memory
2. fan qi de ai
Quite cool. I think it reallie sounds like the movie liao .. hee hee. Hopeful, i can find the scores for 'ti yi ci' ... reallie like that one ... the song that the SO CUTE guy played for the girl.

2 things that always amazed me is that you can never compete with a dead person. No matter what, the memories will always linger [no matter how long time goes to pass -- some things and part still lingers on]. Unfortunately, if u are competeing with a person that's gone -- you will never win. ==NEVER WIN== ESP, when it's love. no matter what happens love exist.

I was pondering about it ... If similar thing happen to me, I prolly would never forget the guy. It's would be terrible and totally impossible [quite] for me to move on. [guys out there, it's not so mushy] ... seriously think about it, It's so hard ... extermely hard to find love. A person that truly loves you and you in turn love the person == so hard/ totally difficult. in most cases, it ends up with puppy love, crushes, one-sided relationship ... etc etc! Just the thought of finding the special someone is a play of TOTAL FATE, ATTRACTION .... ... blar blar ... ALL AT THE RIGHT TIME! ... Come on, the probability [if u do maths] is reallie low ...

... And long awaited someone appears, then, u lose the person [at the pt where u didn't tell tt someone how much u loved him]. The amt of regret ... brings tears to your eyes. prolly, i would never NEVER N-E-V-E-R forget him ....

The other thing that amazed me is falling in love with the same guy [diff character] ... TWICE! That's reallie something that i can't put a word to! AMAZED ... So that's that! It's something that reallie strikes my mind thinking about WINTER SONATA for the past few days of watching the show.. HEAT WRETCHING!

A little question
If you truly love this girl,
but this girl is going to be wed to another guy
yet in her heart, she loves a person that looks like you...

What are you going to do?
1. Allow her to continue to mistake you for the other guy and get her love [Well, you will definately win -- u have an edge over the guy she is going to wed]

2. Tell her clearly tt you are not the DEAD guy. Clearly, every minute that u have with her, you know that she might be taking you for another person ..... Of course in the hope that she will love you for you

3. Love her in your own way -- while you let her wed another guy

4. Go away?

What would you? Do think about it =0) What's love? Love is not possessing the person [making her mine], but making sure that she is happy. It's reaallie sad loving a person, that loves another in much pain. In the heart, you will feel the pain of the one you love -- yet u can't do anything about it.

Ironic

princess maddie.